Its late friday night, and I have been sitting here trying to decide what to write. The last couple of hours have been terrifying knowing that my chance to go to Nicaragua could be completely taken away from me because of one night. One night that I could have spent at home, handing out candy or watching scary movies, or honestly anything. Im on probation with CGA now, and I'm still trying to figure out why I did it. I don't even know where to start. Nicaragua is something I want so badly, it is that one positive thing that I was truly looking forward to. Having that chance to still be able to go, I am going to try so hard for this, already starting fundraising I just bought 300 rubber wristbands that say "Do Good. Be Good" hoping to sell those for around 3 to 4 dollars I should hopefully make a good about of the 500 dollars due by December 20. Karen and I are also going to have a babysitting night I believe on December 7, so parents can leave the kids with us for a while, still deciding on other facts, I think its going to do well. On December 9 I have to talk to the whole CGA group about my Halloween night, I finished my rough draft tonight, I'm going to continuously edit it. Trying to tell the other kids how serious the contract is, and being completely honest I'm going to tell them all the honest details so they understand that nothing is worth getting your trip taken away. After school I got a call from Lisa Marie, knowing what it was already about, I answered already shaking. During the talk I was told that my trip is not being completely taken away (which I am so grateful for) but I am probation basically, I have to do extra community service, talk in front of the group, monthly things for any of the chaperones and basically just prove that I am willing to do this, and that nothing is going to take this away from me so easily. I know what I did was no where near a good decision, but learning from my mistakes I'm going to help the other students be successful with keeping their word on the contract.
